Not a good start to the day. Awoke feeling as appalling as I did on Tuesday; lots of pain & difficulty breathing. Forced myself out of bed to take pills but due to empty stomach the pills made me feel very sick. Mood crashed & forced myself to eat a banana. Bananas don't seem to fill this monkey with joy. I have filled the morning with Lana Del Rey, Morrissey & Rik Mayall in an attempt to cheer me up. Mind working overtime this morning, rushing from bad thought to nasty circumstance to horrible happening to foul conclusion. Ugly, ugly conclusion. Lana was a nice distraction.  She hasn't made me feel better but at least I don't feel sick any more.

This afternoon I will sew, iron & call the psych well being service as they haven't sent me the details about the stress management groups they promised. I think they might be necessary.   I might have to watch "The Big Bang Theory" as well. And breathe, lots of breathing. Breathing is good.