Sat in day

Cuntbunny did yesterday in & resulted in me ceasing all activity other than eating nachos with cheese dip & watching Dr Who. However my incapacity led to me looking into guided meditations on You Tube. While bits of them were a little trite I managed to achieve meditative states that I'd not experienced for years, dissociation from body, hallucinations, the whole lot. Really successful. I had another go this morning when CB woke me nice & early. Didn't go as deep but there was a Figgis kneeing me in the side.

The result has been feeling much improved today. While the pain remains intense I feel better equipped to deal with it. I think I'm stuck with the pain for the time being. My breathing is much improved but the pain is still here so I think it's probably best to try to cope with it for now rather than fight it off. So I'm going to keep as active as I can for short bursts with rests & keep on with the meditating as that's helped most. Pleased to be feeling a little better. So far today I have...

• Showered, shaved & got dressed.
• Disinfected the cat loo.
• Done the laundry.
• Washed up & cleaned the kitchen.
• Taught Jack how to play Go Fish.

Things to do are:

• Wait for Ma & Pa to pop round.
• E mails
• Read mail
• Sewing
• Big pile of ironing
• Watch "The Godfather" later.
• Sewing.